Being in LOVE again...

Hey you BS!!! I really really LIKE you! DO you Even care?? Well, I hope you do...

Emo._.

从来没想过，我尽然会承认此事。我以为你会因为知道我喜欢你了而选择逃避我，但你却没有。你还是在微信里发给我可爱的简讯。我的确很高兴，不过…… 我还无法相信这一切。我害怕受伤……失望……哭泣……因为我曾经受过的伤让我变得很脆弱……没有任何人能够理解我的心。

还记得上个星期一，那时候的我心情低落因为很多事情在困扰着我，压着我…… 我完全听不进人说的话，只听见自己在心里大大声的呐喊与哭泣。突然觉得眼睛开始湿透。小精灵好像发觉到了，就在回班前叫我不要想太多。我只向她勉强微笑说okay。之后，我尽然在厕所一个人哭个不停。我发现我已经很久没有这样哭了。不过说真的，哭了后就爽多了。我不打。

现在……我脑海只有浮现你那难忘的面孔。你为什么要占领我的脑？你知道吗, 我现在好想洗脑啊……是，我的确喜欢上你了，但我不要求你喜欢回我。我只希望能够继续这样地守护着你。当你孤单或伤心的时候，就戴上我制给你的手环想我; 开心的时候，把手环收好在一个固定的位置，好好爱护它，别让它‘受伤’。

I LOVE YOU

29/10/14, Wednesday
So... I gave him the loom bracelet I made him and the cloth with his name stitched on.
He thanked me on Wechat and the conversation went like this:

Him: Thank you for the wonderful gift
Me  : Sure
Him: I will always wear it xD
Me  : Crazy mehh
Him: Oh why? It will always remind me of you xD
Me  : No need to remember meee
       : Hahaha
Him: Lol XD
       : I'm busy I gotta go study xP  bye
Me  : Good luck =D

Then the conversation went dead. BUT.  On 1st November 2014, He asked me something that made me so nervous...

Him: So who's the lucky bastard That I kept reading about in your blog? XD
Me : I dunno
Him: Haha dun play dumb xD
Me : :P :P
Him: Lol
       : Okay then I wont ask
       : Gtg busy anyway
Me  : K

I purposedly ended the conversation simply because I don't want to show that I'm so Nervous and excited at the same time. Then after about 15 minutes, I wrote something crazy.

Me: Look into the mirror ^_^

He replied the next morning.

Him: I knew it xD
Me  : How?

Then he never replied until now ~haha
I can't believe I admitted my feelings towards him. It was scary at first but now it makes me smile all the time...Hehe

 

Can A stranger walk beside you?:)

We started off as strangers. Last year when I was on duty at GC2, I remember you trying to annoy me at first. You kept asking me how come I m so short and pleaded me to let you go upstairs. Somehow I was pretty mean to you at that time but you didn't seem to be offended. However you kept saying my name "Joyce. Joyce Foo. Owh please let me go upstairs to get my book." Me: "No. Cannot. Dun disturb me la!" You:"Joyce ahh.. Owh Joyce Foo please? "
I didn't like it when people called me Joyce Foo. It sounded weird... I kept saying: "走开啦!你很吵耶!走!" Instead of being angry, you made a pouty face. The bell rang and he said: "Joyce Foo 我会记得你的~" He said with a cunning smile. I Remembered. I thought that he was annoying but somehow special. I didn't really think that he would really not forget me but he ended up being nice to me. Picture one is the shorter one. Start reading from the bottom picture first=)

I MISS YOU!

Basically, I wish I could take a ride with you on your motorbike again. Being so close to you makes me feel like a princess. To be honest, I wanted to hold on to your waist tightly when I was behind you but I didn't because I was afraid that you would freak out and never take me for rides again.  I was honestly scared the first time you took me for a ride. Every turning you made was a heart attack for me but you made me feel safe with you. But sadly I only had two rides only for this year...once on my birthday then once on sports day because I'm in need of the toilet. I like it when we ate crepes together at SkyBlue cafe. Remember when I couldn't finish my crepes and my ice lemon tea? You were willing to finish it for me.

I still remember the first reason we ate crepes together. You tried to help me in physics late at night through Facebook even though you haven't done your own work. I thought it was very sweet of you so I promise to give you a treat. Well, the second (and also last ) crepes we had was for my birthdayy. I remembered that you offered me some of your crepes. I see you bite off one side of it and want me to bite the same part. I regret for not taking the offer...I wanted it so badly but what in the world had stop me? Well, at least you were willing to help me finish my crepes:) Happy=)

The second time was on sports day when Kijang Emas' toilet had no water. I was so nervous to ask to take me to the nearest petrol station for toilet...I saw you sitting on the grass with your friends but i dare not approach you. Then there came second thoughts of going straight to you until I see that you were no longer on the grass...
So I panicked...I went to the back of the stage and pretending to be searching for my phone... Then A hand hit me on the head. It was you! I was smiling at him and stood there frozen for a moment and totally forgot about how I need the toilet. Then I shooke myself as he walked away and remembered again~ I called after him...He seemed surprise to see me in a hurry to him. I told him to take me to the nearest petrol station after sports day ended.

To be continued...